Friday, October 21, 2011

Carnival Night

I will start by saying that this post is probably going to be all over the place.

We took Caleb to the carnival our city has usually twice every year. We are trying to be able to take him to do all of the normal things we would usually do with him and get him back to his normal routine as much as possible. I think we are going to start grief counseling sometime in the next week or two. We are going to go to a place that has counselors who are trained to work with children through play, art, etc. to make sure that Caleb gets what he needs. He has been upset and doesn't know how to express this so I want him to know that we are always here for him and he can tell us whatever he is feeling and that it is ok.

How I am feeling today...well, of course, I miss my sweet boy. I wish I could have taken him to the carnival tonight. I know I would have had him strapped on the front of me in one of the many baby carriers I purchased during my pregnancy and we would have been keeping each other warm. Everything we do is a constant reminder of the part of our family that is missing, but I do know that everything is going to be ok. I still know that God's plan is good. That has not changed simply because things have happened that I wish I could change. I will remain faithful and say, Blessed is the name of the LORD.

Back to the carnival. Two of my sisters were there with their husbands and each brought one child with them. My mom, her husband, and my little brother were there. My friend, Laura also came and brought her daughter. We had a good time. The kids rode pretty much everything. My goodness, they are so stinkin cute!

They tried to win luck. Darn! (can you hear the sarcasm?)
My favorite part of the night was probably watching them all eat goodies...Funnel cakes, cotton candy, and of course...deep fried snickers! Yummy!
Dancing after the snack. Ha ha! So cute!


  1. I'm so glad you guys got to go spend time with Caleb. I cannot imagine how hard it was to be there without Levi. You must think about him simply all the time. I'm glad you shared the night with us. The pictures are adorable. Feeling the sadness and seeing the happiness all at the same time. And praying more.

  2. Becca, I'm so sorry about your sweet Levi. What handsome boys you have.

    I lost my daughter Reese two years ago, and I'm sorry for any mom or dad to know this heartache. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers today.

  3. I'm so sorry for what you are going through. May God's peace and comfort be with you. I found your blog through Kelly's Korner. I have a ministry on my blog called A Meal in the Mail. I feature families going through a difficult trial, and encourage others to send them a Meal in the Mail (a restaurant gift card) They send it through e-mail from a restaurant website. I would like to feature your family, and allow maybe one or two nights off from cooking for you. You can reach me at If you'd like to be featured, please let me know. Again, God bless, may you feel His presence strongly.