Thursday, October 27, 2011

Fall Festival Number One

Last night we went to the fall festival at Caleb's school (it is also a church). Man, it is just so hard to go out and do all of these things without Levi. Everywhere we go, I think about him. I wish I was carrying him around with us and trying to time things right around his nursing schedule. I wish I was trying to help Caleb tie his shoes while holding Levi. It is weird how you just want to do the normal things that get on most peoples nerves when you lose a child. We will probably go to one or two more of these things before Halloween. I do want to go; I really enjoy watching Caleb have a good time, I just hate that our family is so broken.

Some friends from our Sunday School class were at the festival too. Their kids are Cohen and Harper. We tried to get a picture of the kids together but we couldn't get them to sit still long enough. Here is the best one...

 Caleb with his teacher from last year. We love Mrs. P!

Punk rock Caleb :)  What a cute boy! I love him so much!

Love the facial expressions!

We really had a good night. It is ok that we think of Levi everywhere we go and everything we do. We love and miss him so much and we like to think about him a lot. It is just that people think it is not ok to talk about him. I like for people to ask questions about him. It makes me feel like they care and it gives me a chance to talk about him (after all, what mom doesn't love to talk about her kids?). I think the kids had fun going trunk to trunk for candy and just being with each other. We even waited in the ridiculously long line for them to go down the big race car slide once and we ate Chick-fil-a after which gave the kids even more time to play. It was good to talk with our friends for awhile, especially since we have been so cooped up and going crazy.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Becca,
    You don't know me...I live in Canada...but I commented on some of your updates along Levi's journey. I have a 7mos old daughter with CDH. It's been a long haul but I can't complain because I still have her. My heart really goes out to you, I can't even imagine losing a baby even though we came close. I just wanted to let you know that your blog is an amazing testament of Gods grace and your faith as a family. It is a real encouragement for me as a christian who went through almost the exact same thoughts and feelings you did when my baby was born. I am amazed by your strength although I'm sure you are "just" holding it together. I pray that God heals your heart quickly so it won't hurt so much to think of Levi. He is in a wonderful place right now with Jesus, and even if you can't see it now, he was spared a HUGE uphill battle that goes on for years. I know right now you would give anything to have that battle back though. I really do understand. May God Bless you and keep you and make HIS face shine upon you! I will keep praying for you, your husband and Caleb...God Bless...